Tuesday, October 16, 2012

Friday, September 7, 2012

Rainbow Shimmer

Rainbow Eyes: Eyeshadow is coastal scents 88 ultra shimmer pallet I started with a bright yellow in the crease, bright pink in the middle of lid,then bright purple on the outside lid. Then going to the bottom lid from the yellow in the crease I used a bright green followed by a bright blue blending it up into the purple
Eyeliner: I used Laura Mercier Caviar in black
Curled my eyelashes and put on two coats of maybelline lash stiletto in black

Thursday, August 30, 2012

Major Flaws

I have never been good at letting go. I remind myself of pain and heartbreak I have been through everyday. Really, The anxiety of it all here lately is getting to me. Trust... I just don't do that. I have been let down so many times. The fear that someone is doing me wrong and laughing about it behind my back is constant. My guard is forever up. I honestly don't know how to be any other way then this. That looking like a fool, that victim card, I just don't play it very well. I absolutely detest looking weak and/or stupid.

Monday, August 27, 2012

Here We Go Again?

I have been through more hurt, pain, and loss in my 26 years of life then most people will endure the whole duration of their life. Most of it self inflicted but some times, especially on days like today, I wonder have I learned anything from it? I tend to make the same mistakes over and over again. the definition of "INSANITY-  is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results." So again I wonder am I insane? I am a firm believer in you make your own happiness and if you don't like something change it, because you are the only one who can. Sometimes though its so hard. A few short months ago I used to look back and be proud to be where I was at, because everything I brought myself out of. Now I am just scared I might be heading down some of the same wrong roads. They tend to look a bit familiar anyways. Will I put myself through it again? And if i do will I be strong enough this time to come out of it? Is it even as complicated as I am actually making it? "Life is hard" I know. "It doesn't always turn out the way you expect" I know. "Plans and dreams can get shattered for no fault of your own" I know. I guess in the end it will all come down to have I learned from the past and will I let things/people/life compromise who I am again. Time will only tell.

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

Tuesday, July 3, 2012

4th of July

With tomorrow being the 4th of July. I would just like to take a second on here and publicly thank all our service men in women who are serving and have served our country. Thank you for all the freedoms we have today, for all those people who gave their lives. Make sure tomorrow while everyone is cooking out and shooting fireworks to tell the military men and women in your life just how much you appreciate them.

Wednesday, June 27, 2012

Product Reviews

I am thinking about starting another blog just for product reviews. I find I am looking for blog sites like that all the time. So if you have any ideas on beauty products or cosmetics you want to see a review on throw some stuff at me. Thanks so much

Wednesday, June 6, 2012


On the makeup artist prospect, it is going great right now. I have a friend who is a freelance photographer. I have now became her on call makeup artist. She is even putting together a ladies event for us, introducing me as her makeup artist and getting me some portfolio pictures. It makes me a little nervous because print is tricky every line shows up. But my portfolio will be beautiful. I am excited about that. I am hoping to have a good range of things in it by the next month. The awesome makeup artist I want to apprentice with will be meeting with me then and I would really like to show her some awesome pictures.

Thursday, May 10, 2012

I want to stop smoking

I have been smoking for 3 years now I picked the habit up right after my son, Logan, passed away and I really want to stop. The only thing really keeping me from stoping right now besides the obvious addiction is I am afraid I'll gain weight. I am a short girl only 5 foot even and I have always struggled with my weight. I had been doing good though by the end of last summer I weighted 118lbs which looked good on me but now I am back up at 135. I hate that. I guess mostly to blame was in my job change I went from working at a gas station where you are constantly moving and stocking all kinds of heavy items and standing all day to a desk job where I'm setting all day and eating. Even with my weight right now making me to say the least insecure something has to give. I get winded by walking up a flight of stairs, I am constantly tired, I cough all the time and sometimes even catch myself wheezing. I've got to stop but I am so afraid of gaining more weight.

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

If it wasn't for bad luck

You ever feel like if it wasn't for bad luck you'd have no luck at all. While I understand I am very blessed in life there's still those days, weeks, months, and I have even had years where it just seem like nothing goes right. It feels like my life is a living testament to " IF IT WASN'T FOR BAD LUCK, I'D HAVE NO LUCK AT ALL." Sometimes it feels like the universe is working against my happiness. I always try to stay positive though because I personally hate hanging around those people who are always griping and complaining "woe is me" type people. But sometimes it just helps to vent. Regardless of what else this day brings I am keeping my head up and looking to the future because the past is just that... THE PAST.

Dreams Can Come True

In my quest to become a makeup artist I got some good news last Friday. A well known and very talented mua where I am from has offered me a chance to apprentice with her. I haven't got the apprenticeship yet I still have to put together a portfolio and meet with her. I am hoping to get a few friends together over the weekend and put together the most professional looking portfolio I can produce at this time. Then I will hopefully get with her sometime next week. I am so super excited about this it's all I've been talking about the past few days. I hope and pray i get it.
Wish Me Luck & Send Me Prayers

Thursday, April 26, 2012

I want to be a makeup artist

For as long as I can remember all Ive wanted to do is be a makeup artist and a nail tech. I've been doing a whole lot of thinking and soul searching this week. I am going to start putting together a portfolio for makeup. I wanted to do one for my nail art too but I'm not licensed yet so better safe then sorry. I love all artsy tip things, makeup, sketching, nail painting and photography. I have so many talents that I really don't have one that really sticks out. I always refer to myself as "Jack of all trades, Master of none." I'm really hoping this can change that. I want to do bridal makeup to start out and we shall see where it goes. Really hoping this works out.

Wednesday, April 25, 2012

Random Thoughts

Facebook was made to make friends but you are only allowed to ask people you know to be your friends, why? It's a social network and truth be told I only know like 5 people. Do all blackberry phones freeze up as much as mine does? It could have something to do with the 1,873 pictures I have on there. I wanted to start a youtube channel but I can't think of a good, really cool name for it. Crap, my phone is still freezing up. Why did they name it Tybee Island? It sounds more like a sickness then a vacation spot. Purple goes great with lime green. Why do styles always go out and come back in, like we can't think of anything else to do. I need caffeine.