Major Flaws

I have never been good at letting go. I remind myself of pain and heartbreak I have been through everyday. Really, The anxiety of it all here lately is getting to me. Trust... I just don't do that. I have been let down so many times. The fear that someone is doing me wrong and laughing about it behind my back is constant. My guard is forever up. I honestly don't know how to be any other way then this. That looking like a fool, that victim card, I just don't play it very well. I absolutely detest looking weak and/or stupid.